Regret/fear & loathingSubmitted by rambo1028 on Wed, 06/13/2012 - 05:40
I, like many of you, am a rookie at this politics game. When all of this talk of going to conventions and becoming delegates started, I wanted to become one so badly. Instead I let self doubt, negativity, and excuses get in my way. I told myself "You can't take the time off work." And "You don't have the money. Who are you kidding?? You can barely make rent this month!" And the most sad one of all "You are just a single mom who hasn't made the best decisions. Who is going to listen to someone like you? Those men in fancy suits would laugh you out of the building." Tonight I really looked at the numbers it would take for Dr. Paul to get the nomination. I realized that what those of you who weren't too afraid and who took action have pulled off is amazing...but because of people like me... the chance of him getting the nomination are slim to none. This is a regret I will have to live with the rest of my life.
Even earlier today, I was emphatic that we could still pull it off in Tampa. The reason I resisted acknowledging the reality is in part because I knew I bore some responsibility.... but also because, and I suspect this is true for some others as well, I feel like Dr. Paul and this revolution are the last hope to keep this country from collapse. If RP doesn't get the nomination and doesn't become POTUS... the alternative was too scary to even consider.
Well tonight I forced myself to start considering what to do now. I am not sure what the future holds but you can be sure I won't let fear or excuses stop me ever again. I am so sorry that I didn't find this bravery before the delegates were selected for Ohio and I am sorry that I let you all and Dr. Paul down. I can't change that now.
While trying to see the positive side, I must say that I agree with some of the sentiments I have seen expressed about this helping us refoucus our energy on state and local races. I am definitely ready to help in any way I can but quite honestly I am not even sure where to start. So far I have donated, put up some signs on my own, and did a lot of talking to friends and neigbors but have yet to connect with anyone in real life in my area that is actually involved in local freedom activism. I don't know where to start and any direction you guys can give me will be much appreciated.
I feel like I missed a once in a lifetime opportunity to be involved as a delegate. :( But I won't sit on the sidelines any longer. This war is far from over... I want to join your ranks. Just need a little help figuring out how....
Edited to add: I can't say that there is STILL not a part of me that holds out hope for a Tampa upset... :) I guess I am just trying to figure out what to do if it doesn't turn out that way.