I chartered my GOP precinct: For spiritual reasons I think I should abandon my post - advice?Submitted by SC Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ on Sun, 09/02/2012 - 22:44
I chartered my GOP precinct in 2009. (Just so you know, I've been "in this" longer than 2009 but in early 2007, I did not fully understand the delegate strategy to utilize a charter for the SCGOP 2007 reorganization, in other words I was not timely in 2007.) Anyway, I actually "chartered my precinct for Ron Paul". For those who do not understand what I mean, there had never been a republican party formed at my polling precinct...NEVER. I formed one, therefore I actually added 12 county delegates to the GOP rolls (with no thanks mind you).
I did everything RP asked, became executive committeewoman, sat on the county Resolutions Committee, became county delegate, state delegate and even made it all the way to "SC Provisional Alternate to RNC 2012"....(what provisional means is I won enough votes at the state convention to be made an alternate but because SC was "punished by RNC" for pushing up their SC primary by taking away half of our state delegate count, the provisionals got discarded. SC had pushed our primary up in order to continue our "First in the South" tradition over Florida pushing up and becoming "First". So technically, we had a right to be "un-provisional'd" but "they" knew most provisionals were RP folk and wouldn't allow us in.) Yadda yadda. SSDD.
My local RP folk call me "The Constitution Lady" because I've handed out so many C4L/RP Constitutions, I'm unsure of the number after so many years. In many cases I left them as tips at restaurants with RP's 'no taxes on tips' cards. I really leaned on the thoughts of:
1 Corinthians 3:6
I have planted, Apollos watered; but God gave the increase.
Because I'm really, really exhausted.
To make a long story short, I've been crying since January 21 of this year almost every day. You would not believe all I personally "went through" for Liberty. Even the folks around my area don't know my physical limitations because I chose to not be made different in their eyes. Basically, had my husband not lost his job and all our family insurance, I would have already had a spinal tap as the last piece of info to lock in my MS diagnosis. In this video of me giving an RP speech http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G1nArz_MKlg many folks probably thought I was a total mess with not standing still yet what was really happening was BOTH of my shins were cramping and I had to keep moving around so I would not have to give up the speech. Yadda yadda. Untold horrors with my ISP (and probably some of my not so sweet letters to USAG's, congress critters, school district tyrants etc etc) really purposefully "bungled" my communications to where all Paul/Liberty e-mails would pop in later, under already read e-mails but marked as on time delivery. Yadda yadda. I could go on for days how bizarre this whole 5 years for RP has been. The reason I started crying on January 21 was because this was SC primary and at 7:00 pm ON THE DOT (polls close), before a computer compile would have even had time to have compiled all counties, Newtie boy was already on the phone with Faux News, accepting his SC primary win. I actually photographed that moment on the TV so folks could see it really did happen.
I didn't start just praying about all this today but I guess today was the day I chose to share my inner groanings and to ask some advice because I'm starting to feel I'm destroying myself further with all this heart-pain I am juggling.
Here is the main crux of what my spirit has shown me:
2 Timothy 3:1-7
This know also, that in the last days perilous times shall come.
For men shall be lovers of their own selves, covetous, boasters, proud, blasphemers, disobedient to parents, unthankful, unholy,
Without natural affection, trucebreakers, false accusers, incontinent, fierce, despisers of those that are good,
Traitors, heady, highminded, lovers of pleasures more than lovers of God;
Having a form of godliness, but denying the power thereof: from such turn away.
Oh yeah, remember the SCGOP audience that boo'd RP using "The Golden Rule" during the Myrtle Beach 2012 debate? http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N4UnkyNJGmw
I am unsure of what to do about leading my precinct for the GOP. I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired but I've never seen a better role model in my life than Ron Paul and I'll soon be 46. I don't want to give up but feel raped and dirtied by the GOP and want no more to do with it (FROM SUCH TURN AWAY).
I've been a few feet away from Gary Johnson, he has decent vibes (I'm a vibe person), I've heard him speak and is an amicable fellow but I just cannot enjoin his view on abortion as I continue to hear the RP quote (in my head/heart) "Without life there is no liberty, without liberty there is no life". So Johnson is not on my list to vote for, neither is Virgil Goode nor Mittens or Obama of course. So I'm thinking, I'm going to withdraw my consent to vote at all for the first time in my voting life.
Now, what do I do with my precinct? Hunt the neighborhood for a Liberty person? I did manage to get my entire town to vote up RP to 2nd place behind Newtie in the primary.
I just need, well I don't know what I need.... but I do know I need to "turn away" from the GOP.
Thanks for any advice or encouragement. Love y'all. SCB