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Why I Call Myself Pol Pot

In November of 2012 I tried to film an arrest, and got arrested myself. I was charged with interfering with an investigation, possession of nature-consuming paraphernalia, riding my bicycle on a sidewalk, not having a headlight on my bicycle, and, of course, resisting arrest.

I took it to trial and was found guilty of all charges - $2200 in fines - all municipal charges. The fines were reduced to a mere $1700 and change.

On April 10 I had to go back to court to explain why I hadn't payed anything on the fines. The honorable whats-his-face asked me if I had any money for him and I said no.

He asked me how many jobs I'd applied for since my conviction. I stammered. He said "Approximately?" so I replied "Approximately? Zero!" He said "You're going to jail."

While in the paddywagon I popped a harmonica out of my pocket and played a couple dirges in G on the short trip to the hoosegow. Woulda smoked a cigarette too but decided not to cause that didn't work out so well last time.

My paperwork said the sentence was 34 days but this was crossed out by his honor and replaced with a handwritten '10 days.' Also, the charges were crossed out and 'contempt of court' was written in.

We all know what happened from April 15-20 of this year. Learning about and watching the MSM coverage of the Boston bombings from jail, with no access to the truth, was eye-opening in itself, and I've already posted about that.

More importantly to myself personally, I was able to read The Autobiography of Martin Luther King Jr. http://www.amazon.com/The-Autobiography-Martin-Luther-King/d... in which was described King's voyage to India where he met Gandhi.

While in India he learned about 'Satyagraha' which is an Indian word that means 'Power of Love, Power of Truth.'

'Satya' means 'love' in this particular Indian dialect. 'Satya' also means truth. There is literally no distinction between love and truth in their language.

'Agraha' means power. It may be easier to remember this by thinking about the word 'aggression' which is what I did. Not an exact correlation as the words are not related, and not an accurate one either as aggression isn't power really at all, though possibly temporarily...

This 'satyagraha' concept came early in the book - page 29 if memory serves - but I kept turning back to it as I read through the rest of the text. It kept sticking in my brain - I must have reread that paragraph a hundred times in just a few days. Could it be that simple? Is love really truth?

Ultimately, on 4-20 of this year I was released from jail, handing this great book over to another inmate who was excited to read about MLK. I'd decided to look for another copy to own for myself if it came along but I knew that if this never happened I'd still have learned the ultimate lesson it had to offer, the lesson that Martin Luther King Jr. considered his greatest lesson - that love is truth and both have power.

To honor this lesson in my own small way I, Chris Cudnoski, humbly take the name POL POT - Power Of Love, Power Of Truth.

And that's all I have to say.

Oh, wait, one more thing - notice the light reflection in my glasses in my profile pic. The reason why there is only one reflection in two lenses is because one of the lenses popped out when I was being wrestled to the ground. Luckily the lost lense was from my good eye so I haven't needed to replace it in nearly a year now. I can see fine without it. Plus it's a good conversation starter :)

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Chris Compadreski...

..and here I thought you'd adopted Pol Pot because Barack Obama and George Bush were already taken.

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The last name thing is something else


Pandacentricism will be our downfall.

I look forward to you taking on your nemesis, LOP TOP

When POL POT overcomes LOP TOP, the world will know peace.

“Although it was the middle of winter, I finally realized that, within me, summer was inextinguishable.” — Albert Camus

Funny - I almost went with that...

Pol Pot did like to lop tops now didn't he?

Pandacentricism will be our downfall.

Have a great year zero

C'mon, that's not the only reason. I mean, you could have called yourself POT POL.

“Although it was the middle of winter, I finally realized that, within me, summer was inextinguishable.” — Albert Camus

Some of the one-star reviews on amazon said that one shouldn't..

'let outside powers in' because it was the false light of Lucifer. Well, there are good lights too, and part of love is letting yourself get goodness. Cause you can only give what you've got.

Let The Light In


Pandacentricism will be our downfall.

are you still in debt to the crown

What happened to the $1700 debt. Did the 10 days in lockup clear that up? If so, that's at least a victory. To make them house and feed you instead of involuntary servitude to repay a false debt is great.


At a rate of $50 per day I was supposed to do 34 days.

But the magistrate crossed off the 34 and wrote in 10. Also, he crossed off the charges and wrote in 'contempt of court'. But he did not cross off the part that said that the jail time would complete my obligation to the court.

So basically the 5 charges I was separately found guilty of during the trial were summarily dismissed and I was then instantly charged and found to be guilty of the crime of contempt of court for which I served 10 days, which then dismissed any further business with CHRISTOPHER CUDNOSKI.

Pandacentricism will be our downfall.

Truth Vs. Loyalty

People are divided by the Truth vs. Loyalty issue. The loyalty-based organizations (military, paramilitary, fire-fighters, political parties, sports teams, bureaucracies, and others) often value loyalty above truth, expecting their members to lie for each other, and to set aside disagreement (i.e., lie or hide their true opinions).

A few of us would never survive in those organizations because we value truth above loyalty.

Speaking for myself, I can't see truth and loyalty as separable. If I am loyal to someone, lying to them is the same as disloyalty: it says that I don't trust them or love them enough to trust them with the truth.

I see Truth as responsible for itself. If I tell the truth, I'm not responsible for anything that follows. It is what it is. If I tell a lie, I am responsible for the consequences.

Which isn't to say that we shouldn't use tact, or simply choose our moments to share the truth. All truths can't be told, and some probably shouldn't be. But, better to say nothing than to lie.

Being lied to feels like the height of disloyalty (and not loving).

What do you think? http://consequeries.com/

I'm completely honest with my friends.That's why they're friends

Honesty makes for a simple life.

Pandacentricism will be our downfall.

Rehabilitative Challenge?

Now that you've begun to wipe some of the stains off the name of Pol Pot I have to wonder if other acronyms could be developed to tweak the reps of Che Guevara, Ted Bundy, Barack Obama, and other mass-murderers.
I'll go next. Should I cash in my present moniker for
Generously Endorsing Objective Reason Grants Everyone
Benignly Unified Sweet Harmony?
Or wait to see what can be done with Hitler, Stalin, or Mao?

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Yeah - Marilyn Manson already did that sorta.

And it's more about how I could have gone with POT POL which was the first acronym I discovered after breaking down the two translations, or not taken the name at all, or just go with pol pot because it is easier to pronounce.

Pandacentricism will be our downfall.

Love ya PP!
That was an inspiring story and now I finally understand what the POL POT thing is all about.

Thanks for your courageous disobedience. If we all had that kind of courage we would all be free.

I'm confused

So are there really two Chris Cudnoskis here or what?


Who are you - my fan club?

Apparently that thread was posted at 2:08 a.m., which is nearly within the range of 3-5:30 a.m. which have been deemed 'unGodly' hours by the pope:

and apparently I wrote it as well.

Very bizarre.

Pandacentricism will be our downfall.


You created this post to bring attention to your user name right? I used the search option above and found this.

My apologies for asking, because I really didn't care anyway.

OK - so you're not my fan club. But someone is...

Somebody out there 'tweets' everything and anything I post, within minutes. It's both spooky and flattering.

Pandacentricism will be our downfall.

Thanks for the book recommendation -

I look forward to reading it - I didn't know MLK met with Gandhi... And thanks for teaching me the wonderful Indian words. Love = Truth

So we Truthers can just as well call ourselves Lovers :)

Agression is essentially the force which makes the bud of the flower open, that pushes the green shoot out of the seed. Positive (the force of Love).

Here is another book so worth reading - "The Nature of Personal Reality": http://www.amazon.com/Nature-Personal-Reality-Practical-Tech...

The thing is, I had to keep re-reading it and re-reading it...

cause I couldn't get the word in my head. It was too foreign. I really had to try to discover or create connections between the words satya and agraha in English, a (nearly) completely unrelated language.

So I came up with agraha (power) first as being closest to aggression in English. This sort of makes sense in a mnemonic sort of way, as the ability to act aggressively is a form of power, though a negative one.

Satya sounds closest to satiate, which means to be completely full, most commonly to food. Again this can be looked at as sort of opposite to and equal to the English meaning as the Indian word 'Satya' means love as well as truth - two things (or a thing) which work best when they are let out, rather than kept in.

Pandacentricism will be our downfall.

Ok. Fill me in here. I'm slow at gettin' stuff sometimes

I enjoyed reading your short bio, but I still missed where you tell us why you call yourself Pol Pot.

Also, have you considered wearing a monocle along with an eye patch?

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It was right at the end, Ralph

To honor this lesson in my own small way I, Chris Cudnoski, humbly take the name POL POT - Power Of Love, Power Of Truth.

The only way to make sense out of change is to plunge into it, move with it, and join the dance. - Alan Watts

Ahhh, thanks Michael

Sometimes I just skim too fast and don't re-read. And then ask dumb questions. Habit I'm trying to break.

Asking about the monocle and the eye patch was dumb?

Pretty legit question in my mind. Quite to the point. Erudite I believe might suit. Along with many other words which I'm sure are spot-on.

The point is we're naturally concerned with what Pol Pot means as a stylistic statement and how this might translate into fashion. If this trends we shall consider getting ourselves into the eye patch and monocle business you see.

We are gentlemen of business. We have long awaited the return of the monocle, the eye patch and next? The top hat.

Be brave, be brave, the Myan pilot needs no aeroplane.

And please dont forget the

And please dont forget the pocket watch and pimp cane :)


Power of love. Power of truth. I like it.


Thank you for sharing :-)

"What if the American people learn the truth" - Ron Paul

Thanks for the info

Love is truth and visa versa. Cambodia. The fact that the Pol Pot revolution occured makes the name conflicted. It does warrent a new look at what happened in Cambodial

Good luck. A name is a name. Love is truth.


sober reflection , is that a real thing? N E hoo,I, do not

recall where I saw somebody's quote/sign off (whatchadigger@ the bottom of one's post)if it's after 10 p.m. I am most definitely drunk! I learned this today from listening to Dan Savage on Mark Maron's WTF podcast; the founder(or a founder)of The Onion also started(or helped start The Stranger, the Seattle based and always entertaining sometimes enlightening weekly newspaper.How do you like them....edit;Tim Keck is the guy,the onion,the stranger & other worthy ventures.re-inebriated edit my favorite voice @ the onion is the voice of Dan Halen of Squidbillies infamy. Thank science suicide is not among his acomplishments! This man's work has brought immeasurable joy to my shift on this plane! "long after he could taste anything" re;1968 chicago.Find the egg,really do!

Aaron Russo, Nikola Tesla, Ron Paul, I'm jus' sayin'

Thank You ...

... for
(So I take it from that story, you are not clan of the Smudge).

"We will burn the old grass and the new will grow."

-- Pol Pot