I'm very happySubmitted by P. Nicholson on Tue, 11/12/2013 - 10:31
Im coming up on my 40th birthday and have been doing a lot of reflecting. Life hasn't turned out exactly how I had planned it. The past 4 years it has been turned upside down and inside out. Ive certainly grown a lot and learned a bit more.
I can honestly say I'm finally happy. Anyone that has ever been in a rut in life has to know where I'm coming from. I honestly didn't realize how unhappy I was until I was happy.
Being happy is a choice. Albeit, a difficult one for me at times. Had I gone to a doctor, I would probably be put on some kind of mind numbing pill. I believe I just got over it and grew up.
When I catch myself falling back into the emotional rut, I pull myself out of by thinking of something that makes me happy. Or a force a smile on my face. Ive noticed I laugh more, Im funnier, people want to be around me again.. my work has improved. My house keeps getting better and better.
It feels kinda like waking out of a dream or remembering where I put my keys. Regardless, I didn't know who else to share it with but feel right at home here on the DP.
We are part of a movement that is going to change the world for the better. Things may be bad, but we have our message and leadership that believes we can win.
I hope you are happy too.