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I've been doin' a lota crying these days...

Whether it was learnin' bout my son's Aspergers condition,
or the Toyota needing over a thousands dollars in repairs,

whether it has been facing the encroaching sales of finance,
or the micromanagement of my industry,

whether it has been restless nights with a teething daughter,
or soothing the nightly nightmares of my boy,

whether it has been my frustration with writing into oblivion,
or the oblivion I make for my writing,

whether God cares at all for the tears I've cried,
and many I've cried as of recent,

I've been doin' a lota crying these days,
and it is making me a stronger,
a better man.

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Please know that my tears are not in sorrow, but in thankfulness for the things I have. I have dealt with pain my whole life as have you all I'm sure. It is nothing new and it doesn't hurt. The tears that have been coming of late are renewing and in a word opportunistic. I am going to be just fine and the tears become more sweet with the lessons that life teaches us.

Father - Husband - Son - Spirit - Consciousness

Please do this for me.

Your post really got me to thinking about a 'condition' that I have. Ever since I was a young child, it has been impossible for me to read from the scriptures without my eyes just rolling with tears. It is quite embarrassing and has honestly helped keep me out of any organized services at my chosen church. I read at home to my children, and they think nothing of it because they have always known this to happen. We read daily and out loud, and my eyes pour tears while my heart is light and joyous. It just makes no sense to me. I want my children to be in Sunday School, and have the experiences I had as a child. Falls Creek church camp, Jr. Falls Creek, lock ins, and seeing the pain and joy of others, and sharing theirs with the same people. Learning to be open about their faith rather than hiding it because the world looks down those with faith. "This little light of mine, I'm gonna let it shine" type of thinking. I know around here that refusing to hide your faith gets twisted into "Bible thumping" and "pushing beliefs on others", but the people who claim these things are meaningless to me. I have never thumped a Bible, and I never push my beliefs on others. We simply have our beliefs, and reading about someone with different beliefs is in no way a threat to me. Somehow these Christian haters see our thoughts and faith as a threat to them, and that is a good thing it seems. Anyway, while perusing the innerwebs I came across a great sermon that focuses on Davids Psalm about Weeping Nights and Joyful Mornings. It was a very good read, and I ask that you take ten minutes out of your day and read it over. May your joyful morning come soon.

http://www.sermoncentral.com/sermons/weeping-nights-and-joyf...

My real crying started the day my oldest son was born...

and it has never stopped. Please know that God does care about you. He weeps with the brokenhearted. The question then becomes, do you care about him? When we weep over the things God weeps over, we finally start to become more of what he created us to be. Love.

Christians should not be warmongers! http://www.lewrockwell.com/vance/vance87.html

If all the people

going through rough times somehow got together and helped each other, each to how they were able... isn't that how communities used to be?

I hope things get better for you~ I hope they get better for me~ I hope they get better for all of us =)

Garnet
Daughter of 1776 American Revolutionists

There's no heartache like a parent's heartache.

I am so sorry to hear of your son's problem.

I wouldn't worry so much

I wouldn't worry so much about your son having aspurgers. Some of the most successful people in had it. The vast majority live normal lives, even though they may act strangely when in the privacy of their own home. You should try talking to people with aspurgers who raised children with aspurgers. They should be able to give you great advice because they same rules don't apply as they would with neurotypical children.

Btw, I recommend against Autism Speaks.

Hey bro! I am with you on that one!

I find myself in the same atmosphere, more so this last year than all the years I have lived so far. The saying that when it rains it pours is so true. Sometimes I think being good is a waste of time..(I think that) but I don't want to change my character. Just want to say I am with you and understand what you are saying. I guess it could always be worse...and I do hope for better days! Not to mention all the things happening in the world today. Encouragement sure is needed and some good news..I mean really good news from the top would be great! Something like "We have decided to dissolve the Federal Reserve!"

Fear knocked on my door and Faith answered!

Denise B's picture

If you believe in God

and recognize Jesus as your Lord and Savior, then you are His child and He loves you more than you can imagine and cares very much about every tear you've cried. In fact, He knows you so intimately that even the number of hairs on our head are counted. For me, since I have become a Christian (quite a while ago now), each day I become more and more aware of the evil that literally engulfs us and if I don't guard myself I can become depressed. I cry a lot for all of the pain and suffering I see everywhere, but I also cry for a different reason when I focus on my Lord and realize that He does love me and has never lost control of this world for one second. Yes, there is suffering and evil in this world, but this world is temporary and one day we will reside in a world where suffering no longer exists. In this world to come, your child will be free from his struggles as well.

Sometimes God allows suffering in our lives because that's what it takes for us to return our focus to Him. How many people say they believe in God, but fail to get involved in a good church or read His Word on a regular basis? How can we have a relationship with God if we don't understand who He is? Also, don't get me wrong, God never causes evil (people do), but he will allow things to happen sometimes to remind us that our focus needs to be on Him first, then all other things will fall into place. When we learn to do that He takes our fears away, refreshes us, strengthens us and gives us courage to face whatever is ahead. When we are faithful to God, He is always faithful to us and will get you through anything with confidence and joy, but having joy doesn't mean that we will never cry either. God gave us the ability to cry as a means to release the pain and sadness we will all at times experience in a fallen world, and also give us the ability to cry as a means to express incredible joy. Either way, crying is not a bad thing.

I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

Reminds me of a poem...

THE WEAVER - By B.M. Franklin (1882-1965)

My life is just a weaving
Between my Lord and me.
I cannot choose the colors
He weaves so skillfully.

Sometimes He weaveth sorrow
And I in foolish pride
Forget He sees the upper
And I the underside.

Not ‘til the loom is silent
And the shuttles cease to fly
Will God unroll the canvas
And explain the reasons why-

The dark threads are as needful,
In The Weaver’s skillful hands
As the threads of gold and silver
In the pattern He has planned.

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Wow!

That was beautiful! Thanks so much for sharing! :)

Well heck!!

That got my throat so tight I might not be able to use it for the rest of the day~

Garnet
Daughter of 1776 American Revolutionists

Good quote about tears...

“Tears are the safety valve of the heart when too much pressure is laid on it.”
Albert Smith

I always feel better after a good cry.

God cares,

and the trials have an ultimate outcome that will be positive, whether we are smart enough to see it or not is another question. You say that you have become a better man, so I believe you see it, now it's just whether or not you can understand the meaning of the trials. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Have faith, pray for guidance, follow the little voice in your head, and recognize opportunities that present themselves.

It could be worse, you could have been a Beekeeper

that gets totally wiped out by GMO's! The Government sanctions it and America believes the lie that GMO's are safe.

In the mean time you loose your entire business you worked over twenty years too build, costing over $100K! Just think of whats in all of your future, Cancer from GMO's!

Gold standard: because man can not be trusted to control his greed

It is a gift, I never

It is a gift, I never understood how important crying was until I was unable to cry for a time. Just hollowness inside, crying is a release. I don't like crying, but there is a time for it, and I'm thankful I have the ability to again.

Crying is the first sound most humans make.

Nature at it's finest... we have the ability for a reason. Don't waste it :)

Peace and love my friend

Cryin'

I did a lot of that when I woke up with the Spirit of Truth. I have problems relating to my children and with my own selfishness. Sometimes I think I fall asleep again due to apathy and confusion. I am having a hard time finding excitement or passion in anything lately. Is it the state of the world or just me? Anyone else feeling down?

But about myself I will not boast, except as it concerns my weaknesses (2 Cor 12:5). Let the unbelievers seek praise from each other; I wish that which is from God alone.

Reminds me of a quote from "The Hurt Locker" movie

Said by Sergeant William James to his son "You love playing with that. You love playing with all your stuffed animals. You love your Mommy, your Daddy. You love your pajamas. You love everything, don't ya? Yea. But you know what, buddy? As you get older... some of the things you love might not seem so special anymore. Like your Jack-in-a-Box. Maybe you'll realize it's just a piece of tin and a stuffed animal. And the older you get, the fewer things you really love. And by the time you get to my age, maybe it's only one or two things. With me, I think it's one."
I can certainly relate to how you feel.I have found it sometimes hard to relate to others who are interested in things I am no longer interested in,like pro sports for example.
It seems what helps me is to try to do simple,random acts of kindness to others as it usually makes people want to relate to you and listen more closely to what you have to say.And random acts of kindness just feel "right" and seem to bring "purpose" and "harmony" to life as well as peace of mind.

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Its all because...

you are a man who cares.

I pray that God may bless you in ways you are just beginning to see.

its 'cos I owe ya, my young friend...
Rockin' the FREE world in Tennessee since 1957!
9/11 Truth.

Great... let me pile it on

We are supposed to be their elders.

We are supposed to defend them.

We were given this task a long time ago.

Now I will play a trick on you.

You tell me exactly why this is not your fault.

I know this is harsh but you need to tell us.

Whom do you love and why?

There is nothing strange about having a bar of soap in your right pocket, it's just what's happening.

It is all my fault...

they love me and why?...

I'm here every day, always, forever...

let the State proclaim this!

Father - Husband - Son - Spirit - Consciousness

your own destiny

"The best years of your life are the ones in which you decide your problems are your own. You do not blame them on your mother, the ecology, or the president. You realize that you control your own destiny."

Albert Ellis