I'm tired! I can't change things...what are we doing?Submitted by letushope on Tue, 03/17/2009 - 22:16
I have been in the garden since Friday, only logged on once on Sunday to check in and same ol same ol. I don't know what I am looking for, but I also don't know how to make a difference. I can't take all this truth and not have an actual outlet for change. I would just rather go back to putting my head in the sand and not know, than know and know I can't do a damn thing about it!
I have planted 3 apple trees, 3 peach and a fig in the last few days, that feels good. My muscles are sore, my body is sunburnt, but I feel good with my hands in the sand. Every topic here leaves me feeling disenfranchased and angry. I feel like saying, let me know when the revolution begins, until then count me out. i know I can't not know what's going on, but I also know I cant dwell on it day in and day out and not have an actual avenue for change.
I just can't take it..... I perhaps am weaker than the rest of you warriors. And I applaud you, i just can't sit here and take it all in and have no way to exhaust it.
I love you guys, and this is sooooo no the typical long goodbye that shows up here wanting people to beg them to stay. This is just how long can you expect people to abosrb sooooo much without any hope to change things....