Comment: Yeah, uh, that there is freaky.

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Yeah, uh, that there is freaky.

"General rules are general rules cause they will steer you right about 85% of the time" a man once told me.

I got dumped out of the health insurance thing at what I considered to be a bad time. I'd just been diagnosed with a very serious ailment. Actually had to pay for my diagnosis out of pocket. "They got me paying to die" I'd joke myself.

Frankly they told me I'd be pushing up daisies by now. Apparently nobody told this disease I'm a fighter. But anyways now all anybody can tell me is get on government health care. At the state, county, federal, whatever level.

NO WAY JAY. Not this kid. I know that is just the beginning of a very poor end. I know once they got their hooks into me they will never let go. Once they got my number it's up. And I don't feel that those people (yeah I said THOSE PEOPLE) have much to offer me. They want to shoot me up with toxic waste for a few months. For something like a 30% chance of a cure if it doesn't kill me. And beyond that, what would that do to my pride? My honour? Would that have the same 30% chance of survival? And I see others getting into this world of dependency. I see it as a massive trap. A spiritual trap.

No thanks. Somehow what I'm doing is working and it feels right even if I don't always. It's still gonna get me, I'm just making it take a really long time. I'm totally on all the holistic stuff, I visit a naturopathic MD twice a year and she tells me what to buy in bulk and how to prepare it. And I'm still my own man, I owe no man, I work for my living. By the grace of God and the benevolence of my ancestors.

I say this not to convince you but to encourage you as one who walks the walk if that's what you decide to do. We're not alone in this path. You yourself have to consider your options. Do you have children? How might this effect their future. Do you cherish your career? What's to say at this point that if you hop on the bandwagon you can't hop back off at some point? None of us really knows what the future holds.

There is nothing strange about having a bar of soap in your right pocket, it's just what's happening.