Comment: Original Armageddon

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Original Armageddon

I'm feeling bad thinking about past things done to me. Perhaps I shouldn't, I've forgiven a long time ago, but I can't believe how bad my life has been, and I wonder how it compares to others - I know people out there have worse lives. I was abused as a kid by my extended family, raped by my uncle (among other things the whole family did), two of them tried to kill me, once when I was a kid, once as an adult, and they are career *criminals*. It wasn't even simply run of the mill abuse. I didn't even know it (I remembered the rape, but didn't confront my uncle about it until later). No one warned me about how they were, and so I was running around like an innocent in a comedy movie, where the whole family knows things you don't and is trying to get you. I always treat people well, and your extended is criminals - they're growing and selling dope, working as a bar room prostitute, one of them goes to jail for filming a *rape* scene with an underage kid.

And you don't know any of it. And you always treat everyone extremely
well, love your neighbor as yourself. And this is your family, and you want to treat them better when you get to know them again, and not only do they know all this and what they did to you, but their actual true life criminals and you're the father est thing from that. And your trying to get to know them again after not seeing them since you were kids, and it's like a comedy movie. Only it isn't funny.

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