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"Maybe you are looking for differences in my life sense I became an atheist."

No, not really. I'm not asking about personal experiences at all. There can be little doubt that if a Christian were to offer you the same sort of testimonial, only in reverse - "My life was a mess, then I found Jesus!" - it would be next to meaningless to you concerning the overall validity of their philosophical worldview.

None of that is to say that I either disbelieve your testimonial, or disapprove of your recovery from addiction and depression. These twin specters are very difficult for anyone to deal with. Of course, I could find literally thousands of such testimonials from people whose worldview is antithetical to your own - people who would claim 'God' was indispensable to their own recovery from such misery. And that would make little difference to you. Likewise, I read your biography with personal interest, while still wondering about my original question.

When it comes to questions about meaning, the central thing is not 'what' your life is, but 'WHY' it is. Now it could be that 'why' you or I exist is an impossible question to answer from the perspective of a philosophical naturalist. And it could be that a Christian answer to the same question would amount to little more than another anecdotal story. But my question seems to be universal to humanity. And since you seemed to be making an appeal in that universal question ("My life has meaning.") I was simply trying to understand your thoughts on the matter.

Had I known that your meaning was simply personal subjective emotions arising out of subjective, contingent experiences, I probably would have just kept to myself.

"what is it that keeps the most obvious of those 3 things kept in a box locked away where it cannot be questioned or picked apart like the other 2?"

More of that rhetorical edge you seem to enjoy. Such a question is little better than the ole "Have you stopped beating your wife yet?" It assumes too much. But lets keep it going all the same. Well, my life was all screwed up, then I found faith. Therefore, I have my reasons that cannot be questioned or picked apart. I have found mental and psychological emancipation. Hooray!

There, now we are even.

But I'm still curious. From your perspective, what could possibly be wrong with illusions in religion, banking, money and government? Some people are quite happy psychologically with such illusions. You seem to believe that illusions and lies are wrong. Why are they wrong? Are they "evil"? If so, why are they evil? What is evil or good to an atheist? This is all just a gaudy cosmic show. It will all end very soon for both you and I, and the material universe doesn't care one iota for any of our personal subjective views on the matter. Why are illusions in such areas any different than a trapdoor spider lying concealed, before pouncing on a bug?
Should we be all up in arms with the spider? Poor little bugs.