This describes me perfectly when I was a fear filled victim of religious brainwashing. I was raised in the Mormon church. There, once a month you will see small children get up in front of the whole congregation and proclaim, "I know Joseph Smith was a true prophet." (while their parents are whispering in their ear, telling them what to say) The congregation delights in these young children "knowing" what they are supposed to, and don't think it's any different with small children in any other Christian religion. They don't "Know" Jesus is real anymore than they "know" Santa is real. Very sad state of affairs indeed. When you believe there is a god, watching everything you say, do, and even THINK, and this god has the power to banish you (most basic, primal fear), you don't want to piss him off!
The world is my country, all mankind are my brethren, and to do good is my religion.