That kind of sums up how I've been feeling recently. Sadly Mum died just before last Christmas. She was diagnosed with cancer and died 8 weeks later. So you can appreciate why I still find it hard to look back on everything and think of her brother-in-law in a good light.
At the moment I try to stay away from situations or people that put me in the path of negative energy.
Not always the easiest of decisions as I always get the old guilt pangs from seemingly letting people down etc. but sometimes it's the way to go until you feel stronger in yourself and the confidence comes back to plough on.
Glad it's not just me who has gone through this because it's quite a tricky one to explain! Looking forward to a much happier holiday this year though and a lot more positive too.