Michael, have you ever tried to quiet your mind, hold the Fool card in your hand and just look at it for a while? Just focus on the card, with your mind at peace, and let whatever images on the card that stand out for you, reveal a meaning for you (as opposed to the meaning generally assigned to that image).
I used to have a favorite psychic. She had to have passed away many years ago, by now. She told me to develop my gift and I have, to some degree. I don't use it very often but, things just come into my mind when I least expect them to. I was much sought after by family and friends for Tarot readings but, have not done any in a long time. There are some things that I just don't want to know about people and have stopped doing readings. I believe you can develop the ability to do it for yourself.
In any event, if you are going through psychic reading withdrawal and IF you ever come into NJ, let me know. There are some very good psychic's in the Sussex/Warren county area and I think there's one in Essex county, too. I will find the phone numbers for you, if you'd like to give it a try sometime.