full Jewish name? Do you pray to the dead Jew now or you are not into religious stuff?
You see, if you listen to anti-Semites, they will tell you that there are no many Jews left. Most European Jews are Khazars. So that is the answer to your life puzzle - you are actually a Khazar. Your assessment of Jews is in fact idiotic, since you have no clue. Next time call yourself "former Khazar."