don't sound like you love life. You seem suspicious of everyone and their motives. Have you ever tried to see the positive rather than the negative in people or situations. Perhaps you are able to see beneath the surface of things more than others, and that would tend to make one more cynical, but perhaps you could try to use that ability in a positive manner rather than a negative. I understand the frustrations, but take a look at your way of expressing yourself; perhaps there is room for improvement. Signing off for now, your minister of love...(joking)... take care and good night.