Thank you for sharing this. As I mentioned, this thread had me at a loss for words (which is rare..;) I think bigmikedude put it best below.
Fonta, if you are reading this, know that even though you and I haven't communicated a lot, I was still floored by your story and wanted to do whatever I could to help.
My "hope" is that you DO return "home," and enjoy more time with your loved ones.
You have my contact info if I can be of any further assistance.