Comment: I tried

(See in situ)

In reply to comment: Your life becomes productive (see in situ)

I tried

to be clear when I said I'm not seeking success for the sake of success, I'm bad with words sometimes.

I understand that seeking success is materialist, that is not what I seek.

I seek the material merely to help elevate the nonmaterial, love.

I'd rather be a wise bum than a rich fool. But if I can be a wise man who is rich then that'd be ideal.

Now I understand what you mean by outward. Outward as in being outward to others. That's a lesson I've learned recently, too often I shut myself off from those I assumed were beneath my attention and love.